82: Tolerance

Having worked for some years, my level of tolerance is gradually moving upward, in respect of tolerance towards junior colleagues and managers, tolerance towards acceptably high price goods and leisure, tolerance towards unsatisfactory services in shops and restaurants, tolerance towards everything in contrary to my will and expectation … …

But of course when the level of tolerance is continuously challenged and is exceeded, I will become rejecting, become angry, become black face, become cool, become silent, and the least reactive one, become forgetful and forgiving. Everything, that’s ok, no other way to choose, then full stop.

Some friends say, ‘Why seldom see you lose temper? Why you said you have lost temper but I did not realize? If I faced this situation, I would definitely lose temper, why you wouldn’t? You are so foolish, why let it go?’ I will think, have I lost the fire to lose temper? Have I lost the fire drive? Or am I too tolerating? Or am I putting all unhappiness inside? Am I too unnecessarily optimistic? I still have not got definite answers.

I’m not going to change. At least I can protect myself and I have no very hard feeling, I will let go.

Learn to let go is important. Something for you is yours. Something not for you is not yours. This is very true. Strive for the former. Let go of the latter. Let go … …